Thursday, August 25, 2005

Can we do this?

Matt and I have been trying to figure out if there is any way I can quit one of my jobs. It seems like it would be impossible to give up that much income, but the stress of all of our schedules is really wearing on our family. We've been through ever possible money-making scenario, but are pretty sure that the bottom line is that I need to stop nannying. I had a particularily hard day nannying for both of the families I work for, so I am sure that is fueling my desire for immediate change, but it's been a long time since we started talking about it.

I haven't felt like a very good mother or partner in a long, long time. It's so defeating to be working my booty off every day and feel like I am getting further and further away from where I want to be. There is no way my family can get to where it wants to be with the tremendous amount of stress we're all under. This is one of my biggest reasons for wanting to quit working so many hours. I would be one step further towards my dream of being June Cleaver, apron and all! I am lucky that Matt feels the direct effects of my stress, and is behind me 100% in scaling down my responsibilities.

Now it's just the matter of being able to do it, finance wise. I suppose my trips to Target and IKEA will be far fewer! Alot of sacrifices will have to be made. I think that we'll be okay.