Thursday, September 01, 2005

I can't watch the news

I am only slightly ashamed to say that I don't really know what's going on in the world, or with the hurricaine Katrina. I try to watch the news, read the newspaper, but I can't. Now that I'm a mother, and I believe this is true of all mothers, it physically hurts to let myself become too entrenched in the tragedy. What if it were my family? My heart truly is hurting. I think about how Matt and I complain about how little we have, how much we need new things. It feels so petty, like we have such trivial worries, in comparison to what these people are going through because of natural disasters.

We haven't really talked about what we are going to do to help. I am sure a donation will be made to the Red Cross. I would like to be able to set an example for my daughter, of how important it is to share what you have with people who are less fortunate, or victims of horrible circumstances. I have never been that good at donating my time or money to any causes. That wasn't something I was raised with, I'm actually not sure why. I want to instill those values in Iris, however, I wish I knew where to start. For some reason I don't think writing a check every time there is a natural disaster is sending the right message. I guess it's not exactly the wrong message, either.

It's interesting how having a child makes you a better person, if for no other reason than it's important to model how to actually BE a better person. Her eyes are on me, even now while Iris is so young, looking to me as her first example of how to carry herself in the world. Whew! What responsibility. Anyways, that's too broad of a concept to think about right now while my heart is so heavy.