Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Third trimester already?!?!

Holy crap, this pregnancy is moving fast. I swear the last one was about 3 years long, but this one? Hmmmm, didn't I just get the positive test yesterday? Iris is growing WAY too fast. I think my life is just flying by because how fast she is growing. Now, because of her, everything is going fast. Next thing I know I'm going to be calling my daughter's while they are away at college begging them to come home and visit.

Actually, it recently occured to me that there is a sad flip side to having babies close together-- they'll be leaving me with an empty nest earlier. I will have children at home for approximately 20 years. That's it? Man, I used to think that would be great, I'll still be young enough to enjoy my life and do fun things. Now I just imagine I'll be old and sad and wishing I had more children to keep me company. *sniffle*

Anyways, for a while, it felt like I had alot of time to prepare for this new baby coming, and now with a 3 week trip taking up the next 12 weeks, well, I'm losing time quickly. I think I'm ready. I mean, I hope I'm ready. There are definitely moments where I think oh my god, I'm going to have this baby, and if all goes well, she'll be born in my home. It almost feels surreal. The birth plan I've made for this baby is so far off track from what happened during Iris's birth that it almost feels impossible. I keep telling myself that it actually won't be that much harder. If Iris had been born in a reasonable length of time, I would have been able to deliver her without drugs. Even though I had an epidural, let's just say I definitely felt everything during pushing. It was suprising, because I didn't expect to, seeing as how I couldn't even feel contractions. So, that's my little pep-talk. I went through hours and hours of labor drug free, and might as well not have had the drugs while I was pushing, so damn it, I can do it 100% drug free this next time! Wierdly, the number one thing on my mind is Iris. I think having her here will keep me more level-headed, more focused. I don't want to lose it in front of her, and I don't want to create a situation that causes more fear and tension than there needs to be. I think last time I needed someone, or something, to keep me more focused on what I was doing, what my goals were, and what I needed to do to deliver my baby. She's going to be my focus this time.

There's a woman in my yoga class who seems really cool. She is planning a homebirth with her first baby and just found out last week that her baby is breech. It must be so frustrating. I am sending her lots of of good vibes and happy turning vibes to the baby. I hope it all works out for her.

6 comments:

  1. Yeah, time does pass much quicker with #2, as I"m finding out as well! I wish you lots of luck in your home birth...it sounds wonderful! I am also planning a very different, more natural birth than I had with my son, however I'm giving birth in a free-standing birth center (with my son there to see the birth). I don't know about you, but just the thought of being in an environment that's comfortable and non-medical m akes the whole process just seem so natural (who'd have thought!) and relieves so much of the fear that often surroundds birth. I'm still a bit apprehensive about the intensity of labor and birth and my ability to cope with it well, especially with my son present, who is very sensitive to how I'm feeling, but like you, I do think my concern for him will help give me the strength to get through it.

    Oh, just quick...I have heard of using accupuncture and different positions a pregnant women can use to help a breech baby turn naturally. Thought you might want to pass that along to your friend.

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  2. Kim, I'll pass along the info to my friend, thank you!

    Do you have a blog? I read your profile but it doesn't link to a blog. I also realized that I need to change my profile to read "professional mama" as well :)

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  3. Hypnobirthing. It's the way to go. Not that I've done it but up until the 19th century hypnosis was the only aneasthesia in the majority of the world and it worked well.

    Plus, you are literally 5 minutes from the nearest hospital if you really can't stand the pain. You could get there, get hooked up to pain meds in 10 minutes and there ya go. Just remember, there is always that.

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  4. Ha ha, thanks for the vote of confidence, Julia! ;)

    That's what I ended up doing last time, high-tailing it to the nearest hospital. Hopefully won't be any such change in plans this time!

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  5. I do have a blog, though I still haven't figured out why it's not linked at my profile (I turned off the ability to leave comments due to some those nasty "trolls", so that may be why it doesn't link, but who knows)! If you'd like to check it out, it's thefalconsnest.blogspot.com

    My midwife mentioned hypnobirthing to me and is going to lend me a home study program on it...she says she just recently attended the birth of a woman who practiced it and couldn't get over how calm and serene she seemed through the whole thing. My response? "Sign me up!"

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  6. Oh good, I'll add you to my blogroll!

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