Living in such extreme heat (okay, extreme for Seattle!) over the past few days has completely drained me. It almost feels like I was sick or something, and am finally getting better. I couldn't hardly function at all other than handling the basic needs of eating, sleeping and taking cold showers. Today is much better. It was 61 degrees when Iris and I woke up at just after 9:00 am. We've been letting her stay up later because, well, the later it gets the cooler the bedroom is for sleeping. I don't mind her being up late since sleeping until 9:00 is fine by me!
In other news, a friend from yoga class finally had her baby. She was almost three weeks over due. I am feeling sad for her because she was planning a homebirth and ended up with a c-section. The very brief email announcement said the c-section was after a long labor, but didn't say if she went in to labor naturally or was induced. I will be interested to hear. This is also the same friend whose baby was lying breech for a while and she did a bunch of stuff to get the baby to turn (which it finally did). It makes my heart heavy to hear of birth stories that end up so different from the plan. Especially any woman who ends up with a c-section who wasn't planning one. Of course, as a mama who is also planning a homebirth it kind of shocked me. No where in my entire line of planning for this birth have I considered even going to the hospital, let alone ending up with a c-section. I would just be devastated. Of course I would be happy if the baby was healthy, and I was healthy, but losing the dream of having the birth you envisioned can be really hard for many women to deal with. Iris's birth still weighs on me from time to time, especially throughout the planning of this baby's birth. I am sad that hers turned out how it did, especially knowing now that so many things could have likely been preventable. Also because I might truly have the ultimate birth experience (in my mind) with this birth, and for some odd reason that makes me sad. I don't want to remember Iris's birth as horrible and the new baby's birth as incredible. I don't want that to cloud my memories or feelings. Sigh.
When Matt and I met with the woman teaching us the hypnosis we did a small exercise to let go of the negative emotions we had surrounding our previous birth experience. At the time I was thinking, hmmmm, I am not sure if that's going to be enough, but thanks! Well, since that appointment, I have felt much more excited about this birth than I already was. Not to say that I wasn't excited before, as I was, but it was excitement mixed with huge amounts of fear and apprehension about birth in general. Now, I'm just 100% excited. Okay, 99% :) Almost to the point that I am feeling sad that the due date is almost here because once it's over, it's over. Like planning for a wedding or something!
I'm just dreading that this heat will return just in time for the birth. I wonder if my friend had labor problems because of the heat-- I am sure laboring at home in 90 plus weather is enough to wear out any mama.