Losing Lily has made me realize I am definitely a dog person. With the stress of small children, I was definitely having a very, very hard time being a good dog owner, but I know that as soon as I am able, I will have a dog again. I think that waiting until Eloise is older, probably at least one, and we live somewhere with some yard access (or at least are on the ground floor!) and I feel a bit more financially stable, a dog will be a new dog in our lives. Last night I was talking to my mom, which is always so nice to share memories of Lily with someone who was as close, if not closer, to her than I was. She had mentioned that sometimes there are dogs in Lily's situation, they live in a family and are bred and shown, then when they retire from those jobs, their owners like to find a new home for them where they can be an only dog. I think alot of people who breed/show dogs have several at home, but sometimes the temperament of a certain dog is better suited to being an only dog in the family. Anyways, she suggested I could get another dog that way, by waiting for one who needed a new family. She even thought one of her dogs would be ready for a new home by the time I was ready for one--which would be so ideal. I could get an adult dog whom was already trained well AND who was a descendent of Lily's!
Anyways, I am so lonely without a dog at home. I also don't feel nearly as safe. I must admit it's nice to not have to be running in and out of the house for potty breaks or deal with a dog being under foot all the time, but I terribly miss the presence of a dog. As soon as my patience has returned and my newborn is a bit less needy, I'll be in a good space to take on the responsibility again.