The past week and a half has been all about Iris in this house. I wrote a bit about last week, with her big fall. This week it's been about the hard time she is having at preschool. It's so rough, for her, of course, but also for the rest of us.
I've written a bit before about the trouble she's been having feeling excluded from some other children's play at school. It's kind of reached a breaking point this week. Iris had a very hard time at school on Monday, refused to go on Tuesday-- something I agreed to, not knowing whether or not that was actually the best choice, had no school on Wednesday, then there was today. She agreed to go today after we talked about it quite a bit. Her teacher has been working on some of the issues on the school side, I've been working on some of the issues with Iris. So we get to school and she FREAKED out. Screaming and crying, she didn't want to stay at school. She did end up staying, but it was so hard. I wanted to sit and cry with her. When I got back to pick her up she was doing great and had had a fun day. I am hoping that having more fun days like that will help her regain her confidence in school. Of course, tonight she still declared that she was never going to school again.
Part of me thinks, you know, so don't. You don't have to, you're four years old! Then the other part of me thinks, you know, you won't fix your problems by running away from them. These are tough, but necessary, lessons. I just don't know.
That has been the hard stuff, but there has also been some really great stuff, too.
It's always been clear to us that Iris is extremely artistic. The past little while her creativity has really blossomed to a whole new level and she literally works on art projects from the moment she wakes up until the moment she falls asleep-- her bed is strewn in papers, crayons and tape. It's really incredible. I am trying to figure out the best way to foster her creativity when it comes to what school environment would be best for her. I would love for her to go to a school that has a strong arts focus, but I am also interested in supplementing her schooling with separate art classes. The main reason I am wanting to do this is just so that Iris has the opportunity to be exposed to things she can't be at home, including different mediums and also participating in group projects. So we'll see. I'm really excited for her. I'm excited that there is something she loves so much that she is so good at, and of course I can really relate to it being that I grew up in an artistic family! If she was turning out to be, say, a mathematician, well, I would support her but not relate to her so much-- ha ha.
This whole kindergarten thing, well, I swear, that deserves many of it's own separate posts! It's alot of stress. Every person I talk to with a child Iris's age, we always start with "what schools are you looking at?" It's worse than getting in to college, I'm not even kidding. I have put FAR more energy picking the right kindergarten for Iris than I did picking a college for myself. It doesn't help that I am still vacillating between public school, private school and homeschool! Stay tuned!