Saturday, July 24, 2010

Defeated.

I am seriously SO frustrated. Back in the Spring when I started my elimination diet I hoped it would kick start my journey back in to good health, and with that, weight loss. Over the past two years I sloooowly gained 20 lbs, ballooning back up from what I considered to be my ideal size, which I was around the time I got married.

So I did a juice fast for two days. And then spent the next four weeks eating nothing processed, little sugar, no wheat, dairy, soy, eggs, basically all I ate was lots of veggies, chicken and rice. Now that the diet is over I am still off wheat and soy and have made concerted efforts to continue to eat healthy. Then at the beginning on June I made a strong effort to start exercising. In June I logged 1000 minutes of exercise. I faltered a bit on my exercise goal through the beginning of July, but not much.

And you know what? I go to the doctor a couple of weeks ago, was weighed, and I'm still 20 freaking pounds over where I want to be! I don't understand how that could even be possible. While I have squeezed myself in to a couple of pants I haven't worn in a while, I am not exactly sure if my body is smaller or my ability to wiggle myself in to too-tight pants has increased.

My husband tells me I look thinner. He is, of course, the nicest liar on the planet.

This week I started swimming laps twice a week. As far as I can tell, it is the only piece of the puzzle missing from when I lost the weight before. In addition to eating well and not snacking at night, I swam laps once every week.

I'll see how it goes. I don't have high hopes at this point, but will still keep working at it.

2 comments:

  1. Ugh, I am right there with you. I've been on a new eating style for 2 months now, one that's worked in the past to drop weight quickly, and … nothing. Not a budge. It's so frustrating. I didn't even really want to lose a particular amount, just thought it would be an easy thing to be a little lighter for the summer, but — no.

    The thing is, I know for a fact that if I give up and go back to my regular eating, I'll gain more on top of it all. So, what? I'm stuck depriving myself forever just to maintain? It makes me want to kick something. Maybe the scale?

    All I can hope, for both of us, is this is some weird water-retention plateau, and then it will be a smooth roll downhill? Maybe?

    For you in particular, it's entirely possible your doctor's scale is just off, and that you were wearing clothes (and shoes?) and such. I always weigh more at the doctor's than at home. If your pants are fitting better, that's a good sign.

    P.S. Not that I've ever thought you had any weight to lose. But that's just me. I'm not even

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  2. I'm sure I don't have to tell you this because you already know, but I will remind you...if you've been eating "fluff" for 2 years and you haven't been excersizing, the fat you lose is going to be replaced by muscle when you start eating right and excersizing. Of course, muscle weighs more than fat, so instead of getting mad at the scale, start keeping track of inches lost around the thighs, booty and tummy and you'll see the difference there. I've talked to many people who never lost a pound but went down several dress sizes because they were losing fat and gaining muscle. Best of luck to you, Sybil. I think you've always looked good, anyway ;)

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