I am kind of in the middle of one of those times where my head is full of so much stuff, so much heavy, important stuff, that I just almost can't think about any of it. I don't know where to start.
So you know what I did today to re-direct some of my energy? I signed up for a half marathon. Ha! Yeah, yeah, I know I wrote in my birthday post that I wouldn't even go there, but I did anyways. The 1/2 is in June and so far everyone I have asked (including my trainer) says I can TOTALLY do it, which means one of two things: I actually can do it, or else my friends are sadistic and are looking forward to me writhing in pain and misery come June 23rd. But, it is called the Rock-n-Roll Half Marathon, so come on, if I'm going to run one, that is right up my alley.
I have run 3 miles fairly easily a couple of times over the last week so I have a bit of confidence that I am starting from a place just a step up from total beginner.
My favorite thing about running is that I only think of two things while doing it: putting one foot in front of the other and the music playing on my ipod.
So what am I avoiding?
I have to make some decisions about actual, real live curriculum for Iris's homeschooling. I started off kind of winging it with some basic guidance, but now that we are signed up for an online public school they will fund and oversee our curriculum, so the sky is sort of the limit now. Which is great, except for the world of homeschooling curriculum is insanely vast and OHMYGOD if I don't pick the right one my kid will be dumb boring and stupid the rest of her life! Okay, just kidding, but it does feel pretty overwhelming.
The only thing overshadowing ALL of that is trying to figure out what to do for therapy and whatnot for Iris. This is one of those cases where the more opinions I seek, the more contradictory information I gather. It is so draining, because I want everyone I talk to to have the right answer, but no one does, of course. And them I am supposed to figure out the best thing to do, but this is my daughter we are talking about, and it is sort of scary to have no clue what the best thing to do is.
Of course, now that we've been drop-kicked from the homeschooling group, Iris is home with me all day every day and I have zero time not only for myself, but also for making any phone calls or working on figuring stuff out. If I am not directly supervising her schooling she won't work on it, so it becomes a juggling act of what I need to get done versus what I need her to get done.
And yes, finding a babysitter is on my to-do list. A babysitter would be immensely helpful, but it takes an awful lot of time to find the right one.