Monday, December 03, 2012

Leaving Behind the Doubt

You might have seen this video floating around Facebook. It tells the story of a man who had all but given up on himself how he found the courage and the strength to regain his health and his power. It's a pretty cool video, so please check it out if you haven't watched it yet.

As you probably expect, the video, and this man's story, are quite inspiring. Most of us don't have what he has to overcome, but we all have our challenges. We have to face them every day, working on what is right in front of us while keeping our eye on the greater prize. 

Right now my challenge has been my injuries. I go back and forth, day by day, minute by minute, feeling alternately defeated and hopeful. What if I can never become the runner I want to be? How can I keep working towards my goals? What ARE my goals? 

I used to think my goals were to become faster and faster, though I wasn't sure what the ultimate goal was after all of that. My goals were also to become a marathoner, even an ultra-marathoner. Both of those goals seem worlds away right now, when I can't even run. When I look back on being injured for almost half of the last year. Half! I am getting pretty close to even being injured for half of the time I have been running, period. I don't know what this means, but I do know that I need to re-adjust my expectations and work even harder at getting strong and healthy. 

Since I am not racing right now, I decided I wanted some sort of challenge to shake things up in my workouts. One relatively easy challenge I decided to take on was the "Holiday Squat-a-Thon" that many bloggers seem to be posting about. It is a schedule of a certain number of squats every day for the month of December. The first week or so is pretty easy, so I have busted out my squats for the last couple of days without a ton of effort. Well, when I do them my way, they aren't a lot of effort. If I do them the way the trainer at the gym wants me to do them . . . well, I may never walk again. Let's just say she wants me to drop it looooooow (which is different than dropping it like it's hot, FYI.) Just wait until a couple of weeks in! Hoo boy!

Maybe you want to join in, too? You can even do your squats on Christmas morning, maybe while chugging your eggnog?

Maybe I also need to challenge myself to regularily accomplish the exercises on my list from the PT? I do them most days, but I can only get stronger doing them more often than I do. Plus, the exercises are pretty fun. I mean, on my list of to-do exercises are "Jane Fondas" and "Apollo Ohnos". Intriguing, right? 

No matter what, though, I will keep pushing. I will not allow myself to wallow in self-pity or doubt about being able to heal and become and the strongest I have ever been. 


  1. Two bad knees forced me to spend an entire winter rehabing and nursing them back to health (and Wyoming winters are not short winters, mind you). That seemed like a bit of a bummer at the time, but it was WELL worth it... they are stronger than ever, the rest of me is stronger than ever, I fell in love with another sport in the meantime and now I am back-- 110%. I have had to let go of distance goals running, but have been able to embrace even more distance skiing, which has been an awesome challenge. I can still run (I do intervals 5 days a week, so there is no avoiding it!) but I've learned to take it from being THE thing, which my knees wouldn't tolerate, to being one of many things that have eventually made me so much stronger. You'll figure it out, just keep your chin up and be willing to evolve with it :)

    1. That is so great to hear, Blair. I keep hoping that will happen with me. I didn't know you ran intervals so often! Such a bad ass!


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