Every once in a while, however, I get a bee in my bonnet about wanting to conquer something, even though I am pretty much terrified of it. The end result is my goal, climbing through the fear is an unfortunate side effect.
On Wednesday I worked out with my favorite trainer in the whole wide world. As usual she wrote me a workout that was borderline impossible. Always skirting the line between what I can do, and what I *think* I can't do. The last exercise in my workout involved me holding a giant 10 lb medicine ball between my knees (the kind crossfitters do wall balls with), hang from a bar, then lift my knees up and to the side, over and over. It was really, really hard. Throughout the workout my trainer and I had been chatting about moves like lifting a 5 lb weight a bajillion times, or doing a tough, kinda crazy workout. She called this the kind of workout Superman would do. Would Superman lift a 5 lb weight for his strength training? Hell No! He probably worked out hanging from bars, too.
When I got home the idea of doing Superman-worthy moves stuck with me. As I pondered the idea I decided that most of the moves would probably be borderline (or completely) impossible for me to do, as well as scare me a little.
After the girls got home from school, they raced to the backyard for some trampolining. I watched the girls do some flips and decided on the spot that Superman probably would do flips. If I was going to train like Superman, I would need to do some flips, too. On Tuesday I had watched my 9 year old conquer her fear of the flip, it took her a few weeks, but she did it. How long would it take me to learn to do a flip? Best to get right to it, before the fear ate me alive.
I gathered up my courage and climbed in to the trampoline and asked the girls to show me a progression, going from somersaults, to standing flips with my hands and head touching, to a real flip, which is bouncing, then tucking and flipping with no hands or head touching the mat and landing on your back or feet.
It was very scary. It was definitely the scariest thing I have done in a very, very long time, but I worked through the steps. And then, I started bouncing, said a silent prayer, and launched myself over. I landed on my back and my girls started shrieking. I had done it! My first ever flip! I did it once more to make sure it wasn't a fluke. It wasn't. I then ran inside and bragged about it on Facebook (isn't that what Facebook is for?) and took a break until it was time to show my new trick to my husband, Matt.
My entire life, I was not athletic. I was not strong. I was not fast. It wasn't until I hit my mid-30's that I realized I could still be athletic, and strong, and fast. I could start training like Superman, and I could do things that scared me (even though I didn't want to), and could turn in to a total badass.
Now I need to conquer the handstand, which I am super terrified of. Hopefully doing a few flips has helped me become more comfortable being upside-down!
Have you ever done a flip? What have you done recently that scared you?